Status For 9/21/12

Just in case there are other people out there who have yet to send me their concerned letters asking me if I’m okay (Something I do appreciate, by the way!), I thought I’d share the relevant sections of my answer to that question:

While C&C can certainly be used as a rough touchstone on the fluctuations of my moods, the operative word is “rough.”  Truth be told, my filters are such that the more seriously dire something is, the less likely I am to mention it until after the fact.  (See C&C, April 5, 2012, I’m Fine.  It’s Just A Thought.)

With that said, the 19th was an incredibly frustrating day for me for no one obvious reason; I was being pulled in too many different directions at once, but I thought I was doing okay keeping it under control until I went to pick up [Lala] from work, got momentarily blocked in once I reached the parking lot, and found myself shouting at the windshield.  Even though I was alone at the time, I was struck (as I frequently am) by how, even without witnesses, that is not how I want my son to behave, so . . .

So in other words, that’s what triggered my thoughts on the 19th about how I need to change to be a better example (a topic rarely far from my mind), and I’m pretty sure there’s nothing to worry about, because if there were, I wouldn’t be talking about it.

. . .

Though now that I think about it, it is a touch worrisome that I seem to have started quoting myself to make a point.


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