Because I Was Going Out For A “Walk-a Walk-a Walk-a”

Me: I get how rhyming slang can be fun and all that, but it seems like an unnecessarily convoluted form of self-amusement to me.

Also Me: Right. I’m heading out for a Fozzie!

And Then Move On

Sometimes you just have to say, “Well . . . that just happened. I guess I needed that.”

See You Then

My thoughts and mood are currently fluctuating wildly (a common response to stress or grief with me), and I question my ability to make the distinction between funny or just mean today, so I’m going to wish everyone well and talk to you next week.

I’m Starting To Think I’m Unreasonable On That Point

One constant about myself that I’ve noticed over the years is that no matter what I’m trying to recover from, every day I haven’t recovered yet I have some variation of the thought, “Shouldn’t I have been over this yesterday?”

I Think This Says A Lot About Me

Even before I posted what I posted yesterday, I was aware that I had posted something similar in the past. What I found amusing however is that apparently the same basic (tongue-in-cheek) thought while sleepy is philosophy, but when had fully awake it’s logic.

It’s Like Looking In An Old Mirror

When asked why I believed that someone I didn’t know well was an uncaring jerk, my response was, “As a former uncaring jerk myself, I can still recognize the signs.”

So I’m Learning

While it’s true that even if I completed everything else, my first impulse is to feel a sense of failure if I fail to complete the last (and by definition, the least important) item on my day’s to-do list, I’m pleased to say that these days my second impulse is to not take my first impulse very seriously.

I’ve Been Struggling With That My Whole Life, Which Includes The Entire Time She’s Known Me

Last night L’s Mother had an ephipheny.  I’d just finished saying that I needed someone (not her) to stop telling me that I was going to react in a certain way, because it was only making me defensive and therefore less likely that I would react in the way they wanted, when L’s Mother looked at me and said, “I just realized something; you are innately defiant!”.

I have to admit, her saying that to me shook me to my very core.  “You mean you just figured that out now?” I asked in genuine utter disbelief.

You Learn Other Things As Well, Of Course

Babies are on my mind today (and, let me be clear, not because one is coming to this house), and children really are amazing creatures.  If you want to learn things about yourself that you never wanted to learn, raising a child is an intensive course in that subject.

It Just Confused Them When I Was Ten

With my birthday approaching (and having reviewed my last few entries here), I am pleased (in a backhanded sort of way) that I’m finally getting old enough for people to expect me to be as crotchety as I am.