“Better” Being A Relative Term, Of Course

These days I have no time to spare to fight over irrelevances and cast indiscriminate aspersions, but there are days I realize I’d be even better at it now than I was back in the days when I did waste my time doing just that.

Scaling Back My Caffeine Intake, I’m Looking At YOU!

It’s incredibly satisfying watching my son grasping a new concept.

It’s incredibly humbling to go back over some past entries here and getting a fresh reminder that I’m still struggling with some decidedly old concepts.

But I Had A Specific Reason For It Yesterday

After I posted what I did yesterday, I remember thinking, “I hope no one thinks that this is related to what I posted on Friday .  . . or Wednesday . . . or . . . .  Hmmmmmmm.”

Okay, so I’ve been prone to being pensive lately.

But Since It Wouldn’t Stop Me, I Never Do

Today I spent some time poking around on some of the earlier entries I’d written on this site.

Let the record reflect that, yes, sometimes I’m so glib that even I briefly consider punching myself in the face.

Musings Upon My Current Quandary

*mentally sighing*  I’d pay a lot to not have to deal with this.  Wait . . . I already have, and that hasn’t worked out so well.

I’ve Been Struggling With That My Whole Life, Which Includes The Entire Time She’s Known Me

Last night L’s Mother had an ephipheny.  I’d just finished saying that I needed someone (not her) to stop telling me that I was going to react in a certain way, because it was only making me defensive and therefore less likely that I would react in the way they wanted, when L’s Mother looked at me and said, “I just realized something; you are innately defiant!”.

I have to admit, her saying that to me shook me to my very core.  “You mean you just figured that out now?” I asked in genuine utter disbelief.

Because That’s How I Learned Not To Do It Anymore

I don’t believe in “Do as I say, not as I do,” but sometimes I have to admit that I’ve had to use “Do as I say, not as I did.”

I’ve Been Working On My “Person Skills” Ever Since

I spent the better part of my life believing I was a terrible person before I realized I wasn’t a terrible person, just an unskilled one.

Now What Was I Supposed To Do Again Today? Oh, Hey, That Looks Interesting . . .

When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.

– Zen Proverb

When the student is not ready, distractions will appear.

– My personal addendum

Time To Find Some New Tricks

I’ve never really counted, but I’m pretty sure I easily have dozens of methods and tricks to help me with motivation and focus.

Today not even a single one of them has worked yet.